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Thursday, January 06, 2005
I am a Blogger as well.
thanks M.U. ( as in matampuhing unggoy, ok?) for your influence.. i got addicted to blogging and then a couple more friends followed and now we're a bunch of blogworms squirming the webpages mwehehehe ..and another biatch getting on board bwahaha we're kinda dominating a part of the blog scene.. lalo ka na.. nahkanaman! hayup!
I am a Blogger.
..and for once in my life, I've become a wriggling slice of meat of that "2004 People of the Year" of ABC News.
Don't squish me if you wanna live. mwehehe
Posted at 11:06 pm by biway
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Wednesday, January 05, 2005
Ok, here's a new entry...
since may mga nagtanong na saken kung kailan ako magsusulat ulet... eto na po.
teka, nagsusulat ba ko para saken o para sa ibang tao na..? trabaho ko na nga ang magsulat para sa ibang tao, pati ba naman sa blog ko... :p
anyway, kailangan ko din naman to.. need to let out some steam.. kung hindi, i'd die at the very moment i stop writing these thoughts..
i asked mang temi nga eh if he knows any drug that could make me die for a day or two, like the drug juliet (capulet or montague, im not sure) took in one of the most popular classic tragic stories.. or anything that'll make me insane for at least a week... i just need an escape.. an excuse to block off everything.. i'm having a veronikaic syndrome..
don't talk to me, i'm crazy.
no, i don't know what you're talking about, i'm crazy.
can't you understand..? i'm crazy!
i'm looking forward to finishing my veronika this week... despite my workload. aaarggh! trabaho talaga panira ng life.
give up? (quoting MAD's son, joey, with Jere's funny tone when he mimics him)
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what to write, what to write...
oh. i was gonna leave, but then someone came up with something - an idea - which pressures me to either tell them right away what my plans are or maybe i have to stay for at least a month or two pa.. while the sem hasn't started yet.. lech.
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my mom is almost ignoring me. almost lang naman. pinapagmano lang ako, tapos wala na. tahimik na. kakalungkot. i'm tryn to understand.. tiis na lang.. pero... haaay...
di nya ako kaya (tigasin effect).... di nya ako kaya intindihin. :( ..eh naiintindihan ko naman kung bakit.
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haay... what the F.
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tonight, gail? ..@ 10pm?? pass muna.. may meeting pa kami tomorrow with the queen bee.
di na nga ako maliligo e.. masasabon din naman ako. :p
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you're the reason why (the reason why)..
you're the reason i (the reason i)...
got to keep this love alive..
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'te milet! (do you even read my blog? not even a single entry noh?hehe nway,) ...excited na ko sa friday!!! it's been a long time since i last saw an AA prod.. looking forward to seeing the talents we have now.. and looking forward to spending time wit ya agun!
ituloy na natin sa xaymaca after the play! hehehe pangarap mo si dino, diba?! teehee!
cge na..! cge na..!
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c",)
Posted at 02:46 am by biway
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Monday, December 20, 2004
This Must Really Be An End...
yes, it's been days.
i wonder how we are able to put up with the deafening silence.
probably the noise that surrounds us makes up for all the dead air.
in a few days more, the year is about to end. good for me. really.
2004, i thought would be a good year to me as i promised to be a better person. it was more than i expected. it led me to extreme ends... i almost forgot that when you give or do something in life, never expect that you'd get something out of it that is equal to what you have given..
it left me most of the time suffocated and frustrated.. momentarily oblivious, exhilirated and lively.. lead on, lonely, then depressed (but not as clinically depressed as Bren hihi)... life must have gotten me at my achilles point... and nobody really knew it... either i held back or nobody cared to know what's really going on in my mind because they were to busy minding their own issues.. and i do not, should not and cannot hold it against them.
most of what we had were just fun casual conversations.
life in general... nothing really personal, intimate, deep and specific.
was it a waste of time? no, it helped us get through...
all was worth it. we should really just be able to recognize the event when life stares you right into your eyes, through your soul, grabs your balls and slams in your face the reality that an end to something worthwhile and beautiful is about to begin.
accept it! accept it! everything has its end.
the year is about to end.
leave it all behind, and start anew, biway!
yes!!! goodbye 2004..!!!
hello, 2005! ;)
We all have raised our voices
We all have done our crimes
We've been excused for every lie
There's no such thing as perfect
So we could make those plans
Or would you have it otherwise?
And on the fulcrum we stand on
We aim for a better view
But then you trip over faultines
Of which you never knew
Then you start to mail all of the blame
Find it back on your door next day
Like twists and turns in radio plays and movies
Mount the script in your autobiography
Take the hero's place and the hero's name
Manufacture spiels for a stranger's sake
You bitch for truth
And you damn well know you're fake.
We all have miced our words
Even exchanged euphemisms
Then we say we must go for truth
We have an ear for envy
Never a tongue for praise
Why can't we have it otherwise?
Posted at 09:00 pm by biway
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Message from God #5 and #6
Went to mass last Sunday, December 19.
Alone, but somehow had a peaceful mind.
"Maging matapat ka sa iyong kaibigan habang nasa kahirapan siya;
sa gayon ay magtatamasa kang kasama niya sa panahon ng katiwasayan."
-Sirac 22:23
He knows it when I need Him.
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Yesterday (monday), I was suppose to buy something for someone
at GBelt 3, only that the place was close.
Someone sent me a message saying "hi" and wanting to tell me a story..
Having momentary low EQ and a reliable intuition,
I called the person and asked what it was all about...
The story made me want to pass by the chapel.
Told Him what I felt, asked Him if I am reading my feelings and my thoughts right
or if I am letting myself be blinded again. Asked, begged Him to take over my life.
"Ikaw na bahala saken, please..?
Take control of everything na, as in everything," I pleaded.
"I solemnly assure you, there is no one who has left home...
for the sake of the Kingdom of God who will not receive a plentiful return
in this age and everlasting life."
-Luke 19:29
Posted at 08:36 pm by biway
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Of course I want to receive something this Christmas!
So far, I already have around 15 things in my basket..
1. a dead butterfly coaster from chia -> how cruel! kawawa naman yun butterfly..
2. woodcraft puzzle from daryl -> niceee! sumthing i've always wanted but never really bought for myself, sumthin to keep my hands busy; gusto ko na tuloy ng malaking puzzle...
3. a couple of unopened gifts from ajay (our manager) and mang temi -> checking EQ.. ngarrr! a forbidden marshmallow would've been easier..
4. biscotteria manila biscotti, a kamiseta gift certificate (bought myslef a new black blouse po.. since the certificate came from someone who is sooooo in love with black than i am, chose black over red) and a VERY short note from momon (whoah!)
5. two other items that i cannot define what they are.. from my officemates din.. parang pad yun isa.. yung isa pen holder cguro yun or holder ng kung anong kalat or abubot na nasa table..
6. a metal butterfly pala from hanna..
7. homemade sweets from ajay and ms. adel..
8. pearl necklace from mum.. love my mum so0o much!
9. "girl next door" dvd from the white elephant exchange gift, afi xmas party.. t'was formerly owned by ave.. yun kill bill kinuha ni soulmate.. nax, soulmate hehe ,,di pa po nya alam na soulmates kami. hehe
10. electric fan from the raffle... don't need it naman so gave it up to Centex.. never thought giving it to them would be such a big deal.. aside from the turn over pictorial (bwahaha) and the many thank you's i heard from them that night, they gave me a thank you letter pa.. imagine that, the things that don't matter much to you may mean big things to other people.. haay.
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What else do I want??? Of course, there's also this list of things that I want to have. I am human after all. hehe I divided them into two: stuff that money can buy.. and those that only I can get for myself...
Worldly things.. (makamundo? haha sagwa)
1. game boy.. ehem..! .....ako na yata bibili nito eh...
2. palm pilot.. rai, ehem! haha nagtanong ka pa kasi kagabi e! haha
3. tuition fee for next year... yoohoo, daaaaad!
4. wheels... kahit pagong lang... pendong peace!
5. cash pang-shopping!
6. and the usual stuff na naaapreciate ko naman.. like lotion! wallet! bags! cologne/perfume!
On a serious note, here are some non-material stuff...
1. Better patience...
2. Better wisdom...
3. More respect and trust...
4. Better guts...
5. Better judgement...
6. Stronger relationship with Big Pap..
7. Hoping that I don't fall in love too soon.. at least let the year end muna before I fall in love again.. can't afford another heart break this year.
8. Real friends to keep.. People who are as (or more) fun, energetic and excited about life, love and friendship as I am.. People who are there not just because they want something else from me. People who are true, realistic, crazy and amazing.
*There's more... But I just have to post this now para mabilhan nyo pa ko ng gift.. hehe may time pa, bilis! :D
Posted at 08:12 pm by biway
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1. Let's Stay Together - Al Green (yata.. im not sure yet..)
2. Sharing the Night Together - Dr. Hook (tama ba..?)
3. Maling Akala - Eraserheads
4. Jeggae - Brownman revival
5. Three Little Birds - Bob Marley
6. Waiting In Vain - Bob Marley
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When the first set was about to begin, the crowd started looking for good spots, filling all the spaces inside the bar. Must I say unfortunately, I stood beside a very loud woman who at the very first moment she got there, was already shouting her lungs out. haha She caught everybody's attention.. as in E-V-E-R-Y-B-O-D-Y'S attention. She was that loud!
"Mahn, she must be sabog or sumthin'.. lakas ng trip neto," I whispered (or shouted) at my buddy's ear.
The woman kept shouting somebody's name, which I could not comprehend at first. After a few sec, I figured she was shouting "Jason! Jason!" ..and then giving that Jason the thumbs-up sign , who happens to be playing one of the air instru in the band. He obviously looks embarrassed with what his big fan was doing. haha But I guess, the crowd, wanting to enjoy the night, just let her be.
After two songs, the band was having trouble with their instruments. So Dino (the vocalist) started announcing their gig skeds, especially that gig tonight (yes, tonight, dec. 20, monday) at Xaymaca which is a fund-raising gig for the typhoon victims. By the way, i salute the band for the effort. Again, the woman took the limelight...
"Dino! Dino! Saan? Saan?! Dito ba? Dito ba?!"
Dino, despite of the woman's loud mouth, unintentionally ignored her. So...
"Dino, Dino! Saan ngaaa?? Dito ba..?! Ditoooo..?!?" with her hands gesturing and waving in the air.
This time, she caught the crowd's puzzled, some crazed and some annoyed stare. haha
She also caught Dino's attention finally and she got the answer she wanted to hear.
"(Huh?) Oo, dito.. dito sa Xaymaca. Punta kayo.."
I was one of those that were crazed and amazed by her adrenaline and happy attitude.
Then she faced me and asked...
"De.. hindi naman nya nililinaw di ba? Di naman nya sinabi kung saan e.."
Being the tolerant me, I just answered...
"Yeyeah..! Tama..! 'Stig ka, mahn," raised and toasted my bottle against hers... laughed at her... and at myself too.
It's people like her that makes life fun, pulls you back to your senses and gives you a reality check.
Posted at 12:27 am by biway
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Wednesday, December 15, 2004
Santa Was Roaming Around Greenbelt One; Shouldn't He Be Somewhere Preparing Our Gifts for Christmas?
Paid my credit cards today, hoping that my Christmas vacation (if i can call it one)
won't be bugged and that it would be peaceful, fun and meaningful.
I'm looking forward to spending time with my cousins, if not the whole Onarres family...
Time with my friends in Pampanga too.. can't wait to see them again.
Shet, inuman na naman to... aside from food tripping sa town proper, jamming, tambay at gala.
Haay. Iniisip ko pa lang, napapagod na ko. haha
I'm looking forward to meeting new friends too. Siguro I'd be able to meet new ones
if makakauwi sila neypacs and kirby, or if imi-meet ko sila cerna and flubboid,
or if nandun c new found friend neil, or if magyayaya ng gimik sila pusad, zwang, kali and reymond.
Waaaah.. Excited na ko! :p
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Have been avoiding raw food. Had tummy aches na kasi e.. at feeling ko kakakain ng raw food un.
Weeks ago, halos inaraw-araw ko yata ang jap food, c momon man o c mang temi
ang kasama ko magchow. Or minsan, kahit ako lang mag-isa.
But today, once again, I ate salmon sashimi.
Ok mang temi, defeated as i am sa bet naten.. ano nga ba prize mo..?
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I saw mommy kissing.. kissing kissing Santa.. uhm... Klee...? teehee
Merry Christmas, people! ...have fun huh! ..be good.
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Kamusta kaya ang magiging Pasko ko..?
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c",)
Posted at 09:44 pm by biway
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Tuesday, December 14, 2004
by Mojofly
Kamusta na, nandyan ka pa ba
Wala na yatang magagawa kundi tumawa
Nandyan pa ba mga ala-ala
Ang tanging bagay na naiwan sa 'ting dalawa
'wag na paikutin ang isa't isa
Lahat ng bagay ay malinaw na
Hindi na rin kailangan pagpilitan pa
'di mo na kinakailangan pang magsalita
~Nakita ko na lahat ito
Pinahihiwatig ng mata mo
Salamat na lamang sa iyo
~emailed this lyrics to a friend with this note:
**ayusin mo na kasi whetever it is that you still have with her eh... i may be bitter on relationships sometimes, but i never stopped encouraging people or couples to save what already exists btween them... khit at my expense minsan, would u bliv?! hehehehe (12/14/04)
Posted at 05:21 pm by biway
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"masamang magpaiyak ng lalaki"
"didn't i tell you last night? masamang magpaiyak ng lalaki."
oo na, oo na! lam ko naman e. pareho din yan ng 'masamang magpaiyak ng babae'.
naiinitindihan ko.
hindi naman siya umiyak eh.. not that i want him to.. pero sabi nga nya ok na sya.. pero kung sakali man na tama ka sa hinala mong umiyak siya... sorry. i really felt guilty.. lalo na na alam kong mabait yung tao. pero sabi nga nung isa kong kaibigan, i shouldn't feel that way. unang-una, right ko naman daw yun. pangalawa, hindi naman daw magagalit sken yung tao kasi nga gusto nya ko. still.
o ngayon, sinong nagsabi na mas madali maging babae dahil kami ang nililigawan at dahil kami ang may desisyon bandang huli..? akala nyo lang madali.. akala nyo lang masaya.. akala nyo lang na natutuwa kami na pahirapan kayong mga lalaki.. siguro paminsan.. pero may mga panahon din na hindi. hindi kami manhid, nalulungkot din kaming mga babae para sa kanila, kung hindi para sa amin.
...pero sana maisip niya din na we had our good times naman.. and there shouldn't really be any reason to cry kasi we still have our friendship.. our gimiks to look forward to, and probably a few more kalokohans...
yan na muna.
Posted at 05:17 pm by biway
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Monday, December 13, 2004
yesterday, i felt like falling in love again. shit. i hate the thought, but i like the feeling.
so i brought the "my sassy girl" dvd borrowed from momon (can i keep it?:D) to pampanga..
no concrete plans really to watch it, but i thought, if i ever feel like watching it for the second time and look for the UFO, i probably just should bring it.. and so i did.
my trip was fun and, unfortunately fast... confession: i did hope to catch some traffic though.
why? pass muna. i'll reveal the reason next time when it would allow itself to be revealed..
oh, that beautiful reason. :-l
moving along...
even before i got home, i knew that there was nothing else to do there but sleep, watch tv, eat, listen to the latest chizmiz in the parlor or play with my drooling lab, Kenjie.. i was hoping someone would miss me (haha) and visit me.. and maybe watch the movie with me. eh, wala eh. bwisit. ika nga ni kirby, 'wala na kong friends!' Haha nway..
so i took a nap twice in the afternoon... yes, twice. i am a confessed sleepyhead.. and i'm proud of being one. but then, i also get tired of sleeping, you know. also, like i told mang temi, i am a night person kaya antukin talaga ako sa umaga. (biway tryn to justify)
night came and i couldn't sleep... i set the dvd on and decided to give "my sassy girl" another run...
it didn’t fail to still make me laugh, giggle, sigh and pity Gyeon-woo and envy the attitude of "the girl"... haha (Gail, i spotted the UFO in the movie, mahn!) ..the movie made me want to fall in love again.. but take things a little slower this time around.
haaay.. i hope I would really finally find my Gyeon-woo. i hope that the next guy i'd let both of my parents meet would be the one i'd be introducing, maybe one, two or three months later (who knows?!), as my official boyfriend (mine and only mine)... and potential partner for life, if God permits.
scary, huh?! hehe too forward noh..? hehe deym, it scares me too, but i'm looking forward to that day.
please let me share with you, my readers (nahkahnaman!), a line that got me during the rerun...
"Know what fate is? ... Building a bridge of chance for someone you love."
-old man/Gyeon-woo
i hope i'd be building this bridge to and with the right person. i hope you will be right for me. can you make yourself right for me..? can you make a shitty situation right for us..? ay teka, ang tanong - would you want us to be right for each other?
Aargh. Love.
Posted at 04:51 pm by biway
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